Retention? A second chance.

It was just another saturday which I did not want to wake up to...but just for the flag day I heaved myself out of my wondorous, comfortable, and soothing bed...just to go to school, collect a stupid can, find myself a partner and go around soliciting for money just for some charity organization.

So reported to school 15min late, listen to Mr Ng's briefing which some of the words i caught were "pretend to be angels for today", "be a professional beggar" and "no going to yadda yadda yadda" I went with Mark, Charles and Terence to the East Coast Parkway, thinking that maybe not many Patricians would be there.

Well, essentially I was right, but the thought of another 3 groups of people soliciting money from the joggers, people at the rocks fishing, barbequing (so early in the morning) , rollerblading and what not....

I must say, some Singaporeans are pretty ugly......Throughout this experience, I have learnt that when doing flag day you encounter 3 types of people.

1st type you encounter are those who just smile or say something and walk past you and then the fake smile you put on falters a little

2nd type is those who actually stop, take a look at the money can and ask what organization are we doing for. We explain and they put in a coin or sometimes if they like it, a note. Simple and Clean.

3rd type is those joggers who claim while running their ass off that they have no money...

(speaking of which there was this jogger who i asked, he said like :" Im sorry man, i aint got no money man." after which he tapped my shoulder" im like "o............................k........but at least he was nice)

Of course there were many other types too like some bastards who REALLY pissed me off by actually smirking and putting on a haughty look.

Like, what the hell...we are sacrificing our time and energy raising funds for the poor and here you are smirking and calling us a bunch of losers who have no life.

To these people, you do not know what it is like having to throw your pride away, begging for money for those in need.


And throwing away your pride as a guy can be very difficult. Just yesterday, the group of us went for Curia meeting...after which Solomon decided to go out with his STC galz to IMM at Jurong much to the displease of Brother Edward, who in turn gave me, Royston and Charles a lift to go to our Confirmation Class, and that was when I received my blow of the day"

After the Con 2 class, my cathechist told me that since I missed so many classes I have to repeat again...

At that time, I felt my world crashing down on me. I was already one year behind my rightful class and now I have to go one step down further? and besides, the reason why I missed so many classes was because of the Mindchamps course i was going through which lasted for 3 months.

I remained pretty upset about it, and now I know how Roderick felt...I pulled a long face until the time where the group of us (me, oli, sharon, terence,roderick) went to Parkway and we stoned in the food court for awhile.

I thought about, the people whom I did flag day for, the 'O' level results which Oli, Sharon and all my other friends are awaiting in great anxiety for. I realize how self-centered I am. I am blinded by my own problems that I fail to see the greater problems of others. All of a sudden I realize how simple it is to solve my problem :

'Don't screw this chance up again. Throw away your pride, stick with your younger brothers and go through Confirmation class again."

So we decided to go to arcade and distress a little...got owned totally by the Time Crisis 4 machine"

Terence, Roderick and Sharon were rocking away by playing the new DDR machine...pretty tiring for the 3 of them. Roderick and Terence found out a way to cheat the machine by using just 1 credit so 2 people can play.

Terence played with Roderick the beginner's mode before Olivia and I came and took over a very leg-pained and tired Roderick and Terence

Olivia was attracting a small crowd when she played the basic and difficult mode of some songs, one of which was "Paranoia" i felt kinda ashamed since i playing only the basic and beginner's part :P

We went home...thinking of our problems and I could not on the com coz it cocked up =.=...thus i missed my chance to tok to hem


Woke up again at Sunday morning to go for my NEW cathechism class.....and threw away my pride I did.....Stepping into the AVA room where our class was held, I saw some familiar faces.

Furtado(punani), Ralph, Eunice, Angela, Sabrina and Daryl were the YFs (Youth Facilitators for that class which they will follow up for 3 and 1/2 years)

Mila,Christina and Jeremy were my cathechists.....

Then there were people like Aaron Tan, Johnathan Chan (Sharon's bro) and Ryan Koh all seated in one group.

I did not feel so lonely after all...We had games (the newspaper game which we won and got ourselves a Marks and Spencer Chocalate but we gave it back to the facils coz neither of us sort of wanted to try kiwi flavoured...................kinda regret it now......:P) , Praise and Worship and we went through the ground rules for the class.

1st class is not bad...but future won't be so slack as now....

Cat class aside..I served 11,15 mass and Joshua paid me $150 for the PSP. $ :D $ After which I went for breakfast...

Attended altar servers meeting....which we all listened to Greg talking about things like committment (now im like dedicating 3 days to serving mass) , upcoming events Chrism mass, Holy week... and apparently still NOBODY wants to come to sunday 6pm. T_T

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Went to Lan for awhile, ate my lunch and then served mass with Daniel Pakiam... I was damn absent minded today as I was supposed to bear crucifix today.

When it was the time for me to go into the sacristy for me to get ready, I asked Daniel to do it as sub-consiously i thought he was the one who was supposed to do it...It was not until final blessing i went in out of frustration and I realized that I'M the one supposd to do it........



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After getting $5 from my sis, i had my dinner... and i went home......

my life feels kinda hectic now......so many committments...servers...tuition...school....legion....friends..........how the hell do i manage man......................

Hope that the grace of God will pull me through...

Have a great school week ahead!








argh..................school

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