.

I never wanted to be this way. But you, whom i thought would understand turn your back on me and say a million and one other things with no sense of logic and no link.

Perhaps it is my fault, but it is not that I really love what i've done. If you so despise me and I am unfit to be what I am to you...why go through all the shit and regret it in the end?

In saying those words, you pierce me with no consideration for my feelings. I know myself better than anyone else...I know what would happen...

I just don't want to hear anymore

happy b'dae sis

Had a short hectic day at school today.

Mass was ok...except for a few cockups, er hem....choir master cocked up...but all went well

I rushed to Astons' Prime immediately after mass...My day was ruined to the idiot restricting everything.

On top of everything there was no fries and crab cakes...-.-...salmon was a teeny bit small...

went to glory catering with greg to supplement our stomachs...
went home and slept like a log....


English tomorrow, not like i give a damn....wat the hell is there to study....



Wanna play ID 4!


zzzzz

quizzie 2

i dunno wats with girls and blog quizzes lately, but i promised myself after procrastinating for a few months on Sharon's quiz (really sorry!), I would check out my friends' blog regularly and see if i get tagged...

it shows they remember me...wouldn't you feel the same?

anyways..these are 20 qns for you to answer...than you can tag others to do it...and they cant tag you back....


1) someone knocks on your door at 2 am...who do you want him/her to be

a person whom i love, and havent seen for a long time.

2) your boss tells you he'll give you a pay rise of $20 if you do your job naked. do you stay and take the raise?

I'll tell him i'll give him $50 for him to do S&M.... before i leave...

3) put yourself in a nutshell

I have many nicknames...gentle giant, holygangster...

4)ever seen a ghost
1st things 1st define a ghost. and i would say yes

5)happy with your body?
hahaha...look at my waistline.....__ off!


6)smth abt me
i dun listen to Metal...metal sucks in all forms.

7) a place you wanna visit
The Vatican, Heart of Catholicism

8)a job you'll never do, no matter how much you are paid
Suicide bombing.......

9)a band/group i thought was cool when i was 13
yellowcard, and it IS still cool to me..

10)you have a nightmare. who is the first person you would call for?
Usually i dun call for anyone. I take a deep breath, reflect upon it and go back to sleep

11)wanna have kids before you're 30
hmm not really sure, have to see how my life goes

12)a memory from secondary school.
i am still in sec school so ill take smth from lower sec. Getting punished for skipping school :D

13)ever had a crush on a friend's parent?
Do i love muds???

14) do you look like your mom or dad...
do you know why the sky is blue?

15) smth you always wanted to learn how to do
learn a musical instrument or a new language

16)how would you like your life to be in 10 years
I would like to be at the beginning of the prime of my life

17)smth you learned this year
so many things...we learn something new every day

18) what would you want for your b'dae
things that come from love and thought

19) name 4 things you did yesterday
Lunch with my siblings, sleep, study, watch TV

20)last item i bought for myself.
er...food?...or other things .....
a mp3 player...

following pple to get tagged....

1)greg
2)sis
3)darryl
4)sharon
5) anyone who reads this...


ok
gonna go ARES frenzy

God Bless

Timeless

Time.

The Beginning and the End.

The Alpha and Omega

All time belongs to Him

Christ Yesterday and Today



For those of you who do not know, the following verses above were taken from the Easter Vigil Text, the 1st part of the celebration: Service of Light.

All time belongs to God.

But alas time waits for no men. Time flies past without any conscious thought and next thing I know its my Promos coming up in about 3 to 4 weeks. As usual I have not really anything much to preparre..ahem retention ahem...

*crosses fingers*

But being the "meticulous student" I am, I am of course distracted by my other things. Church, leisure etc etc...

I missed a lot of Cathechism classes lately :X If I retain again I might as well not get confirmed at all. =.="

And the new boys have started pouring in. This Sunday would be our last training sessions before they actually start to serve weekday masses.

We split them up into 2 groups, one to train and one to learn to don their attires properly

Well for one thing the first training session was ok but there was a little incident.

Not gonna mention any names...

But apparently one trainee server pointed his middle finger at a parent, due to the parent disturbing and poking him, as said by the server. Apparently the parent of one of another server saw the boy disturbing his child, which led her to manhandle him.

This of course warranted immediate disciplinary action by the Mentors a.k.a Greg, Nick, Chris, Damien, Josh, Daryl and me. So after the training session, he was summoned back into the vestry where Greg gave him a little counselling.

If it was me I would immediately have been kicked out without any questions asked. :P

Fortunately, the boy realized his mistake and apologized. His parents was also informed about this.


The second week was one when the mentors displayed their authourity. During the 1st half of the session we were joined by ex-server Michael Chow, Damien and I, divided them into their original groups. Most of the other mentors like Greg, Nick, Joshua and Dannel could not make it due to prior commitments

Damien and Michael were being stern on that occasion so as to ensure high levels of discipline and full attention. They trained the first group. We were pretty shocked at their lack of knowledge of mass responses. There were a few incidents, but one which was most memorable was when after The Lord's Prayer was said, the new boys followed up with a Hail Mary. This blatant error caused Damian to lose his cool and he (for lack of a better word) shouted at them
and it was a very uncomfortable 10 minutes or so listening to him lecture with raised voice, in front of the parents.

For myself, it was extremely disturbing for me to know that the young boys did not really know or understood the type of responses to be proclaimed. But deep within me, I somehow think it is because that Damien and Michael were being stern, so they were afraid to respond for fear of making a mistake and getting scolded. But seriously, the incident mentioned in the above paragraph warranted a real good scolding.

Damien and Michael said that this also really reflects on their religous upbringing at home.

I was tasked to train the 2nd group, who were watching group 1 first

I must admit I was not feeling myself on that day, due to my very bad cough (which I am still sick with) and my reluctance to actually shout at them. As a mentor, I do not really know where does the line of my authourity lie, and I wish to gain the respect of the new boys by giving them some first. When I accidentally forgot a part and made a mistake, Damien helped me and took over me. I really was not feeling well (I still am not) and I was grateful for his help.

We could only train them for an hour or so because we had to let them take their measurements at the foyer. Those who were done with their measurements went back to the main church, sat in the PEWS and were lectured once again by Damien, about basic mass responses.

Things ended off in a rather moody note as the new boys went home perhaps, to reflect upon their religion and their calling in the society.

And a week from now I am going to have 2 servers with me. These 2 new boys (one of them who is my junior at school) have just moved house and also changed their parish from the Church of the Sacred Heart to our parish. They were servers over there, and they asked to be able to serve here.

Sigh, as mad as this might sound, I AM going to miss serving a 1 person mass on Sunday 6pm...It is pretty fun come to think of it, for the past 9 months. But if I am sick and unable to make it, and if Father Patrick is celebrating that particular mass, the repercussions on the society would be very dire.

Somehow by His Grace, (not Archbishop. God's Grace) I have not sustained any injuries serious enough for me to be not able to serve mass. And I am really thankful for that.

Anyways, now as the days come closer by our society would be enlarged by a considerable number. There might be problems over communication, authority etc etc. But we'll take them as they come along.

'nuff said for servers...




ID 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oli's really getting the hang of the game...I'm about to expire my 3rd card....My AE 86 is almost full tuned...And I am considering what would my 3rd car be...(considering the Honda Integra Type R DC 2 or the Honda S2000 AP1)

At school, I am finally able to put my server responsibilities to rest with regards to serving mass, and finally able to join the Legion formed choir. It is still in its early stages. And most people in there do not have musical background. We are practising really hard for the upcoming exam mass on Thursday 27 September.

Oh and speaking of which, it would be my sister's birthday on that day. :D

25 going on 26 this year, she is an October Bride to Be. (Better go practise my reading on Corinthians Chapter 13)

We are going to Aston's Prime a more sophisticated version affiliation of Astons' Specialties which is already booming with business on a daily basis

That day also happens to be the feastday of St Vincent de Paul, where there are many branches of the society named after him, all in aid of the poor.



I think all in all, that's has been my life for the past 2 to 3 weeks summed up.

Exams coming...looking forward to the upcoming wedding and holidays.

Time waits for no men

Carpe Diem

Seize the Day.

God Bless!

quizzie...

Been delaying this quiz for some time too...

List out 5 presents you really want

(some of these may not be materialistic)

1) A person who loves me as I love her

2) A little more money never hurt

3) A really nice flute where I can give my time to

4) A MUCH MUCH BETTER COMPUTER

5) MOST IMPTLY A HANDPHONE!!!

Answer the following questions:

The person who tagged me is : Sharon

My relationship with her: Good Friends

My 5 impressions of her

1) A person who's mature in her thinking

2) Able to empathize with other's difficulty

3) Has her crazy times too!

4) Supportive towards her friends

5) and she really really hates smokers...(Screw u muds)

The most memorable thing she had done for me: Landing a listening ear and complaning with each other of how life sucks big time during our difficult periods, and always there to give advice on how to solve our problems :)

The most memorable thing she said to you: Which is none other than her mantra which is always stuck in my mind 'It takes one to know another'

If she becomes my lover I will " lol she's attached oredy...."

If she becomes my lover one thing she would have to improve on would be " Refer to previous answer, and fyi she does not have anything to improve on to be a great friend :)

If she becomes my enemy I would : Forgive and forget....duh...better to have one more friend than one enemy don't u think...

If she becomes my enemy the reason would be: does not matter does it.....refer to previous answer

The most desired thing I would want to do for her now is: Perhaps to bring her and the rest of us for a nice treat some day....

Overall impression of her: =.= did i just answer this...? for the sake of clarity: Caring and person who can empathize

How do you think people will feel about me: I dunno that's for them to answer....

The characteristics you love about yourself are: I can say i am tolerant enough to endure insults. I would never want to see any of my friends hurt in anyway. And I am willing to go that extra mile for friends

On the contrary the things i hate about myself is : Not able to give commitments to things that really matter.

The most ideal person you want to be is: JESUS! The One who loved and served all. I would like to follow his way of love and service too...but just look at the amount of my sins, it can even reach the height of heaven.... =.=

For people that like and care for you, say smth to them.

I thank you all for just the simple fact that you exist in my life. Thank you for including me in your lives. The care and concern that you have showed me is more than words can ever express.

Pass this to ten people (not that im sure they will read about this)

1) Charles! BEST BUD IN LEGION

2)Gregory my bro

3)Darryl (i dun give a shit how many times u do it man.muahahahahahaha.....nvm if u dun wanna.)

4) SHARON (revenge is sweet ain't it XD)

5)OLI!...what more can I say

6)Furt....havent seen u for long time man

7) James Kwa

8) Joanna my sis

9)Sean Lai

10) to the person a.k.a you who is reading this (Gotcha...)

SO there it is.....my answers...

take care and God Bless!

5 Presents?

Happy birthday Darryl Jeremiah Leong!

haha well...

Been a long time since I blogged...

Now that it's a break time from school I can at least catch a breather before running the final mile...

Academic paths aside...


Today was Darryl's 17th birthday...been 2 years since I met him...still remember meeting him for the 1st time in LAN...yes those were happy times...

Always played games together like HOTD 4 and presently, ID 4.

Nana (Christina) took Darryl, I and Oli to Cafe Oliv for lunch where we had a nice spread of dishes like Oliv Platter, German Cheese Sausage and our own respective main courses.

The treat was really filling and great! Thanks Nana!

After which we went to Settlers for a game of Taboo!

haha...we had many occasions where we just fell apart laughing our assess off..

For instance, Nana was trying to make Oli guess the word "Ceremony" She said things like, wedding smth.....I helped out by saying...Morning Flag Raising....


Oli obviously did not get our hints and she just shouted "FESTIVAL"

Then it was Oli's turn to describe the word "Multiply" in which she took a bible verse. "Go forth and???)

MULTIPLY!!!


Everyone fell apart laughing......


oh btw, the Taboo! was special as it included some Singaporean stuff like "Chiam See Tong", "Cashcard", "Temasek", "Lee Kuan Yew"

We played there for 2 hours after which we left the place. Nana had to go off to City Hall.

Darryl and I helped Oli to shop for some stuff for her culinary experiments at Cold Storage Parkway. After which, we hit the ID 4 machines at Timezone. And now my Toyota AE 86's engine has been tuned to Step 7, thus gaining myself a racing engine, which can go up to 11 revs...

F****** gay...................


Then now I came back and find that I am the only one at home...cool...

Time really flies...My holidays are ending real fast, and I still have some work to do..

Thats it...Dota till 6 am today...


Really great day today..

and once again

Happy 17th Darryl. May all your wishes come true, and hope you like the wallet :D!

take care and God Bless!